The more I understand what God is calling me to, the less I think it's about going to the Czech. God doesn't need me to help the team in Brno. He is calling me to let everything else go. I could stay here, I could move to the jungles of India, I could set up shop in Brno. Luckily for me I get to live in Brno that is not jungley at all. Do you know how hard it is to forget about yourself? Not easy. Not easy when you're single and literally only have to care for yourself. I've learned how to be pretty selfish. I'm an expert at spending money on myself. As much as I live in community with friends and family that I care about, I can be introverted and self-absorbed.
I've read articles and blogs about simple living and I long to be that free. Those people aren't tied down to stuff and things. They garden and have artsy Instagram accounts with thoughtful quotes and serene pictures. They remind me how relaxing and enjoyable life can be. If my Instagram account reflected every aspect of my life, you would see how busy I am. You would see that my house is full of things I don't need or use.My goal is to simplify my life. The less I have, the more energy I can pour into the necessities of life. I can focus and foster my relationships. I can be more present in the here and now. I can hear God's leading without all the distractions.
When I say that this may not really be about mission work in the Czech, this is what I mean: The team in Brno needs help. I am very willing and excited to join them. What God is showing me is that the process of getting on the mission field is much more about preparing my heart and mind for mission work. It's about stripping away the unnecessary so that I can truly listen to what God has next.
